125 dollars a day

So what do you do the night before an exam? 

I have found plenty to do.

Youtube magic school bus, check facebook, replay newsboys songs, clean my room, make my bed, do my laundry, read blogs, calculate the cost of being at school next year only if they don't change the price of tuition, think about and pick my favorite harry potter movie out of the three that I have seen so far, listen to my suite mate and her boyfriend have sex in the next room, look at the holes in the wall and try to come up with a good story on why I didn't turn in the pink sheet with the information that i didn't make that hole, think about what would happen if I never found a guy to marry, dust my furniture (whaa? I never do that!), try not to cut from the stress of the exam tomorrow, wonder why there are people running up and down my hall, think about studying for the exam tomorrow, think about the tour I will give at the open house on saturday, and so, so, so many more things. 

Now, I have to pose this question, why?  

No, not why my suite mate is having sex in the next room, not why I dusted when i never ever do, not even why the heck am I calculating the cost of being at school next year, or even this year for that matter. 

But, why am I procrastinating on studying? 

Doesn't one procrastinate on things they don't want to do, such as cleaning up the dog poop, cleaning the mold off of the sink (okay, okay, its not quite mold yet..), telling a friend something that you don't want to tell them and they don't want to hear? 

I want to be in school, yes? 

Of course I do. I want to get a degree in nursing, I want to help people, I want to make them smile in the tough times, I want to do something meaningful, I want to do nursing. 

So why do I procrastinate on studying when I want good grades in my classes to pass them?

Why do I procrastinate on studying when those tests will lead me to my degree then to my job? 

Why do I procrastinate of studying when it is costing me $125 a day to be at this college? 

Yeah, I don't know either. And the only thing this post did was make me procrastinate more. Back to the grind stone, back to chemistry and microbiology for me.